“My Inner Bliss”: Romance and the Loving of Men

Throughout his poems, Matias never describes himself, or his attraction to other men, as wrong or bad. His poetry never strays into self-loathing or a desire to change himself.  Instead, many of his poems are self-affirming in his identity. When writing about his romantic relationships, Matias often expressed deep intimacy and respect for those he loved. Romantic words and sentiments infuse his love poems, many of which he wrote while an undergraduate at Trinity. Throughout his work, he writes positively of his attraction towards men, using words of wanting, attraction, and other flowery language to describe how he views the subjects. In “Bobby,” for example, Matias writes about how the subject acts as a light in his world. Even in some of the poetry he wrote about being heartbroken, like “Untitled" [S1 F2 13], he writes about the love he wishes he still had, rather than any regret for having it. The following poetry by David works to show how he openly and honestly expressed his identity as a gay man.

"Untitled" [Can I stress the glory enough...] - S1 F2 56

"Can I stress the glory enough..."

An untitled poem by David Matias

In this work, David states explicitly that love helps him cope with difficult times. He writes that he will meet hard journeys “with joy, for I have comfort cushioning me in the form of love.” This poem describes love, and more specifically his love for another man, as an uplifting and fulfilling experience in his life.  In his writing, it acts as a driving force of good and positivity.

"Brian" - A Series of Poems

"Bobby" - S1 F1 F12

"Bobby"

"Bobby" by David Matias

“Bobby” is written with positive descriptives of the subject. In this poem, he compares the subject to a “beacon,” and reflects on how these characteristics allow him to enter “even the dark depths” of David’s heart. Matias writes about the qualities of the subject of this poem with a deep appreciation and emphasis on how it affects matters of his own heart.

"Untitled" [Maybe our disembodied souls...] S1 F2 75

"Maybe our disembodied souls..."

An untitled poem by David Matias.

By writing about the hypothetical longevity of his relationship with the subject, Matias conveys his feelings of happiness and contentedness in his romantic life. By projecting into the future, it is clear that he intended on being in a long-term committed relationship, with no signs of trepidation towards the fact it is a man that he is writing about.

"Untitled" [Never was I more myself...] - S1 F2 13